Searching for an ideas on what to update on this blog is a tough one. I just can't free my mind on what is going to happen next. There's so many things or plan in my mind and I am only holding 2 hands on my body. With work. With house repairing. My plan to do renovation. My plan for social activities. Plans that scheduled for me. Sometimes, I just can not hold it. I missed prayer too often nowadays. With darkness starts early, it feels like 24 hours a day is running short everyday. By 6.30pm, it's already dark. In the next 1 hour 30 minutes later, shops started to rolled down their shutter. Market needless to say. Haven't got a chance to visit it nowadays.
It's all started with the broken car engine. Running the house or life using one car is sucks. The day started from as early as 5am. By 5.20am, it's prayer time. And I only have a window of less than 1 hour to perform it. So, once the eyes opened, it is less than 1 hour to take bath, perform prayer, prepare breakfast and rush to send her to work by 6am. No early morning sex anymore. At all. I love morning sex. It stimulated my day and I will have enough energy for another sex later of the day. Even a quick one will always do. And I really missed that. *sigh* wonder if any ladies out there who love to have a quick morning sex, maybe we can share the fun? Imagination running wild again. ....
September. The month that I really started my duty as a Union crew. Meetings after meetings. Sometimes until late at night. Working without looking at the time. For what? I guess I did it just to have a different experience. Working with others from a different organisation. Their working style. Their working attitude. And getting to know a lot of new people. Not to mention, girls. But when I think about it, I'm too old for flirting around. But with their friendliness, one is so easily got seduced. No wonder why did some pocket full guys can have a few spares around. The whole month of September was full with activities. Training, courses, conference, took me away from home a lot of times. Time off from the office is great. Rush here and there is something I hate but it's my commitment that drive me. Working behind the scene and not expecting any reward is something I would do. The best is the end result when everything when on smoothly. But with all this busy scehedule, my mind still can't get rid of Angie. I guess it is not my mind but for sure it is my heart. That's why she always pops out in my life.
But, this is life. Full of stages. I've tried to avoid these kind of activities for so many years already. Now, maybe it is time for changes. Brain is dead if doing the same thing all over again repeatead daily. It feels like a robot. Day in day out in the office. Can't even think of other things from 9 to 5. Ever since Angie and CSS left, the office is never the same again. I missed my motivational,my inspiration for coming down to work. Busy,busy, busy for nothing. Have to watch the same boring face daily is such a killing me softly from inside. Avoiding hearing the voice and sights is what I tried to do the best everyday... gosshhh, I missed Angie's voice. Wish I could just pick the phone and call her just to hear her voice.
The negativeness sense once entering the office can be felt daily. I don't know maybe it's because of the management of maybe because of the environment but for sure, I really need a change of office. Maybe that's why I agreed to become a committee in the Union, once approached by the President, just to feel a different office and working with different people. Guess what, I like the positiveness of the others, expecially the women committees. They are great and very easy going. Contrast to girls colleague in the office.
Till I started to get dizzy again with my writing. .... Adiosss....
😙 love you AN.
