You've been very cruel

You've been very cruel to me this year. I prayed for a better time with you. I prayed for a bright future with you.  I thought that you will understand.  I thought that you'll changed. But what do I get??? Since early of the year, you have not been nice to me. I pour my deepest love to you. I sacrifice my time to you and this is what I got at the end. You're leaving me. I know.  I can sense your cruelness since March. By April,  even on my birthday, you didn't even wish me a single word and that's very cruel of you. I feel you the effect of your cruelness come middle of the year. You're very dry during this period.  Until sometimes, your wetness is a begging for. You even explode this year. Killing a lot if souls. And now, you're pouring so much wetness that can drown people. You blow a strong wind until non can hold on and die.

I gave up with you. With this last posting,  I want to bid you a farewell. I don't want to see you anymore at all. You can live your on life, that's if someone willing to pick you up. I have met a new one. So I don't need you anymore. Adiós and good bye 2014. You've been bad this whole year. I hope your replacement if much much better than you. So long........

It's that time of the Year

It's that time of the year again. Year end. A lot of corporations, associations, charity body, Parents Teachers Association started to plan to treat their staff, workers, volunteers to an annual dinner. Appreciation to their contribution during the year.  Whether they're making a profit or not, that's not the issue. As long as they treat their staff well, people will appreciate it.

I remember years ago or better to say more than a decade ago, every single staff is looking forward very much to the staff annual dinner. This is the only time, they can have a fun and enjoyable dinner together, away from the office works and thoughts. This is the time they can bring thier spouse to a bank event dinner. This is the time, they can have alcoholic drinks unlimited. Fun? Yes at that moment. Sorry to say, I've changed. I no longer adore the function. It's sounds ridiculous if I said, it's all because of the location, location and location and also foods. Off RM100, I'm pretty sure, a decent 5 star dinner is sufficient for that amount. When we said 5 star, automatically we will imagine of a 5 star hotel. Class food. Good environment. Nice atmosphere and of course, with HALAL certificate. That's is very important in appreciating the staff. Not just as if "melepas batuk ditangga" or in other word, as long as its done, fine.

Management willing to spend thousands to organise a dinner for customers. Thousands in executive entertainment. But why when it comes to staff entertainment,  with RM100, they don't want? Why must buy a "Tupperware" again and again???? My kitchen cabinet is already full with it. Don't even know where to keep a new one. Why spend my fund allocation for a lucky draw that I will never get? Why can't they think out of the box? Why must holding a dinner at a non-halal certificate restaurant?? Why should I highlight it? I'm only one person. Why at the first place they choose that place? There's so many why. Pity to the organiser too. They work hard to get things done but as usual, there will be grievances from people. This time it's me. I never say anything before. So people can take me for granted. I always say okay for all the suggested place, but deep in my heart,  I really wish someone will understand. But what more can I say, I'm only one person. I don't want people say that they choose that new place because of me. What if the food is lousy? What if the service is lousy? What if the environment is dead? People will point at me. Just because of me, they can't have nice decent meal. They can't have that. They can't have this. I will feel guilty. I'm not a sympathy collector.  

It's all in the matter of principle and my religious commitment.  I have to follow. I don't want God, who has been taking care of me all this while to get angry with me because disobeying His ruling. No. I try to avoid that. I'm very thankful to Him and try to please Him whenever I can. I know someone will feel angry with my unfair statement but who cares. That's my feeling towards this particular issue. Until when I should keep my mouth shut? If you can't accept it, then live with it. You've never been in my shoe. You don't know the temptation that I have to face in this kind of situation. I've been drunk before. I've been cheated before. Ever once, I was served with pork fried noodle and luckily I realised it earlier. Almost swallow it. I was angry. I was ridiculed but I still have my faith. I still have my patience.  But from now on, I will speak no more. I just let it go and live my life in this place just like before. Don't sympathize with me. All I want is the understanding of the real Halal food. Serve no pork doesn't mean it is halal. And stop asking permission from me in terms of organising an eating function. It's about time you yourself to learn what is Halal. Don't only learn what syariah council do in banking law. Learn what cause something is halal or not. Don't belittled this issue. If this happen in Malaya, you'll get slaughter lively by the staff there. And I am serious about in my preparation to meet my maker. And learn your Old Testament too. It speaks clearly on this issue.

Adios and love you all always. Really.