The 1st day of my 50, that's my birthday, I fall sick. Flu. Fever. Coughing. Thought that I strike Covid-19 for the 2nd time. After getting doctor's consultation, it is just a common flu due to allergies. So, no celebration this year, same as any other year before. I never do celebrate my birthdays. It is always just another ordinary day for me. Going to work as usual. Preparing my dinner and eating alone. Went to sleep early due to my sickness.
Reaching this age gave me a lot to think of things that I didn't do at my younger age. I am so busy catching up with life, economy, status, family and building a strong foundation for a better future. By the time I am ready, I missed a lot of life events. Activities that I could have done when my body is stronger is all in the past now. Looking back, I myself knew most of the thing that I missed was because of money. I am always worried that I don't have enough money until the next payday. I am always worried I can't provide food on the table for the family. I am always worried that I have to borrow. As for the worry, I have to sacrifies a lot of my desire which apparently not very important at that time. Now that I have passed that stage, I am still worry of do I have enough until the day I die? Worry of something that not yet happening obviously didn't help much in reaching the life you want. I realised this when I reached at this age. Did I make my life better now because of my worry in the past? No. Did I save enough to earn my future life better? No. Did the past lifestyle make your life better now? No. Why not? It is because I don't live in the past. I don't live in the future. I live in the present. The present is much more important as it is happening now. The present does matter. If you don't live the present life, you will end up regretting things that you don't do, now.
That is why, when I see young generation is doing things now, I don't feel a thing. No envy. No comment. No advise. For me, if they want to do it now, just do it. No need to ask for blessing. Just do it for you will regret it if don't do it. You want to travel? You want to become entrepreneur? You want to switch jobs? You want to climb? You want to get married? You want to study? You want to play sports? Just do it. Will it be a good decision? Will it be a disaster? You'll never know until you experience it yourself. If it is bad, learn from it. If it is good, make it better.
For me, to make myself feel peace, I will always said, been there, done that so that I can move on with my life without looking back at the past.
Some might not agree with all this and that is just an opinion. Like I said, been there, done that. I like to move on with life now, the PRESENT.
Adios
